The Dreadful "fine"
Sitting in Starbucks
Watching the world go by
Out of this space continuim
lost in this train of thought.
These words blotching
this page of nothing
slowly becoming
this masterpiece
...maybe
Sipping on my coffee
wondering where this
thing that I call a poem
is going...
Being distracted
from this masterpiece
by the people walking in
..."I wonder where
they came from"
Not their address
But what was their
last conversation,
or their last meal,
or when was the last
time they slept a full night
full of peace and empty of worry?
Is he getting coffee
because he was up all night
with a precious new baby?
Or that she was up all night
fighting the temptation
of making it her last?
Are they getting the usual
because they are afraid of change?
The same reason
they won't quit
that dead end job...
that is leading to nowhere
...And seek after that job
that they have dream about since
they were kids.
Or what about
the woman behind
the counter...
I wonder her story...
Did her boyfriend
leave her after
she lost her everything
that night in her bed
Did he leave her heart shattered
on the floor as she holds
that pregnancy test that screams
.....POSITIVE?
I gently smile
and say...
"Hey, How are you?"
With fear in her eyes
she painfully smiles,
gently says, "fine"
Barrel of Monkeys
We are just a barrel of monkeys
We are together
We bind our selves
and build forces
but the lid pops open
and a child turns
the barrel upside down
We stick together
One falls
two
three.
and soon we all hit the ground
And our bond is broken
We don’t know what to do
We soon realize
We cannot move on our own...
we need outside forces
We look up
there He is
with joy and compassion
in His eyes
The Father here to pick
us up one by one
Naming our name as
He pick us up
We are now put back
not in the barrel
We are now a strand
because
A strand of three cords
Is not easily broken
Jail Break
You are that feeling of pain
We can not describe
Our understanding of You
is that of a child
who has been sent to his room
for breaking the rules
We try to find You
In the crevices of the jail cell
We have put ourselves into
Searching yet forgetting
The lock is on the inside
Not even sealed
We hear you clanking
On the bars
but we dont answer
too scared to get outside
We just sit and stare
Wishing there was a way out
We try to deny
Your presence at the bars
but you are
...undeniable
We run from corner to corner
trying to escape
but we are too caught up
trying to get out
we forget that you are there
Because you are
...Omni-present
We have created our own prison
and cant even
figure a way out
We try to be
our own god
of this prison cell
But you are I AM
We are not God
We did not create
what can never be destroyed
We did not heal
We did not raise from the dead
We did not
We can not
and will never
Sanctify
WE ARE NOT GOD
You are
-- I AM
Blood-Stained Note She lies in her bed
alarm still on
no movement...
She is found
arms limp,
blood dripping
no movement...
The mourning begins
that Sunday morning
A blood-stained note
found near the knife
Her last words..
"I am sorry
I could no longer help myself
It was too painful
to look at that mirror image
of the person I was.
You no longer have
To worry about me
I am gone...
on my own accord."
No one ever asked
why she always
covered her scars,
or about the wounds
that were created
the night before
on that over-turned
blood stained rug
Untitled
With each stroke Of this pin Another part of me dies. A part of me that I never wanted anyone to know about But each new stitch is a new part in this dreadful timeline
called my self righteousness. I need someone to undo The holes I have made And fill them whole Fill them With something That is never failing Something that will never die